New Year's Eve

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If you're like me, you probably have at least a few major things you're looking forward to in 2017. Maybe it's being done with school. Or maybe it's getting a job. Or perhaps you're ready to finally tackle that project that you've been wanting to do for so long.

Maybe you're not really sure what to expect from 2017. Perhaps you're dreading this coming year and all it will bring.

I encourage you to find something that you're looking forward to. Spice it up. Make life exciting. Make it hopeful. What is life if it is dull and dreary?

Once you have something you want to do or a goal you're aiming towards, go for that goal. Finish school. Try new things. Meet new people. Change your degree. Get a job. Take up sky-diving.

Do something YOU want to do. Go somewhere YOU want to go. If you're in school or in work and you hate what you're studying or doing, then don't do it! If you hate it now, you'll hate it later too.

I was talking to my uncle recently, and he was telling me all about how he majored in the medical field and ended up finding he just couldn't handle seeing sick and dying people. Instead, he ended up in a computer tech company for several years--despite never having studied that! And he loved it.

Don't just live life just to live it. Enjoy it. If one plan or road doesn't work, try another. If something is distracting you, get rid of it. Make the most of life, and make it count.

Because you've only got one shot.

The time is now.

And so, the end of another year approaches. So much has happened this year, and now it is all over. What once was the talk of months of preparation, is now history. So many raging emotions of joy and sadness; of confusion and clarity. Therefore, I found it suiting to start up a blog to keep track of this; of future endeavors, emotions, and perspectives.  

I'm trying to find my place in all of this. I'm trying to make meaning of things that... I feel should have meaning, or more of it. An apathy has overtaken me; it overwhelms me. To care, to love, to trust...  is to have passion, to be vulnerable, and to let go of oneself. It is a hard thing to do. I find myself chasing perspective, always trying to see things in a light that is positive and uplifting for others as well as myself... I don't really know if this is the way to go; sometimes I feel like this is the right thing to do. Other times, it's as if the only reality I see is negativity. How does one make something positive that which feels so hostile and hopeless?

This year, I do have a few noble plans. But are they mine? Am I just following some guideline, some book of rules for life? This is my life. Am I who I want to be? Who do I want to be? I feel as if a clock is ticking, and my time is running out. Do I give up? Do I start over? Or do I try and live a somewhat normal and common life?

I know what I need to do. The time is now. The choice is mine.

I like the number seven better than six anyway.